What do you feel when you think you are so different from someone? What do you feel when you are trying to be similar to them but you can't?
Before I fall for him, I did realise the GAP between us. But, the blindness of love has covered me; causing me unable to concern on the difference between us and took the risk of putting my heart into it. It's sweet, tempting and surprising. But now, as I suddenly realise and see the GAP between us.. My heart felt so heavy as if a spear pierce through it. I was thinking why am I still dreaming and putting effort to make things work after I got all the upsets. Its not that the effort is not worth it but I have tried to narrow down our gap. Tried to be in his position, to be in his circle of friends, to be understanding as much as I can. For the moment
when I look at him, then I look into myself.. In what way that I can ever be the one? No, I can't find any reason.
Indeed, waiting for someone is very painful. It's like you are slowing down your time just to wait and hope. It is a risk that requires extreme braveness to bear with cause in the end of the waiting, we never know we will reach our goal or vice versa. I have chosen the path of waiting and me too, have to bear with the difficulties I will be facing during the waiting especially the intention of giving up. I am fighting towards that intention. I always convince myself that he has a lot of priorities and not enough time. I am just a passenger in his life. Well, let see how it ends.
I won't give up so easily in loving him.. like how he work hard for the things he loves.. I want to do something for him to ease his burden.. I could be his prayer of hope, I could be his dream, I could be his worry partner, i could be his romantic soul, i could be the one. I've promised him.. I do not want to break the promise no matter how hard it is for waiting him.
These few days will be busy going church for Holy Thursday, Good Friday, Easter Vigil and Easter Sunday. Gam ba teh!!!
P/S : Always Think of Our God And Love God For What God Has Done For Us.
Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +
Before I fall for him, I did realise the GAP between us. But, the blindness of love has covered me; causing me unable to concern on the difference between us and took the risk of putting my heart into it. It's sweet, tempting and surprising. But now, as I suddenly realise and see the GAP between us.. My heart felt so heavy as if a spear pierce through it. I was thinking why am I still dreaming and putting effort to make things work after I got all the upsets. Its not that the effort is not worth it but I have tried to narrow down our gap. Tried to be in his position, to be in his circle of friends, to be understanding as much as I can. For the moment
when I look at him, then I look into myself.. In what way that I can ever be the one? No, I can't find any reason.
Indeed, waiting for someone is very painful. It's like you are slowing down your time just to wait and hope. It is a risk that requires extreme braveness to bear with cause in the end of the waiting, we never know we will reach our goal or vice versa. I have chosen the path of waiting and me too, have to bear with the difficulties I will be facing during the waiting especially the intention of giving up. I am fighting towards that intention. I always convince myself that he has a lot of priorities and not enough time. I am just a passenger in his life. Well, let see how it ends.
I won't give up so easily in loving him.. like how he work hard for the things he loves.. I want to do something for him to ease his burden.. I could be his prayer of hope, I could be his dream, I could be his worry partner, i could be his romantic soul, i could be the one. I've promised him.. I do not want to break the promise no matter how hard it is for waiting him.
These few days will be busy going church for Holy Thursday, Good Friday, Easter Vigil and Easter Sunday. Gam ba teh!!!
P/S : Always Think of Our God And Love God For What God Has Done For Us.
Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +
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