Ungodly hour

Hey, me (laugh, lame joke). How weird can I be? Hahhahahaha...

Gulped dinner in 5 minutes, continued OT-ing till I fall asleep with my face on the laptop keyboard, lmao. It's 3am upon waking up. So ungodly huhu ~~~

Continued what i suppose to continue till i gave up and fed up... work life balance serioisly off the grid!

Here i am feeling half hearted on writing but figured just write la as I will be so bored when I reach old age and reading back all these posts; laughing at my past self will be entertaining lmao ~~~

I met someone, someone who have shaken my beliefs and doubts; someone who stirred my long dead heart which no longer feel joy. I need an answer. Should i look for it? Will it cost a big price? Putting myself first or other people first?

P.S I want to believe it is just wedding jitters but it ain't the case.. 🙄

It's been 8 years, hi.. my old self

I thought i have forgotten about this blog until i stumbled on it again. Huala~! 8 years has passed since my last post. 8 years can take away a person's joy, happiness and anticipation towards life and future. 

Somehow the urge to write has came back to me... longing to be discovered by someone who really knows me; whichever state of life i am in right now. 

Heart has been the same ever since; with a huge part of emptiness still exist in me, searching for answers. I am still looking, I am still searching for the unknown.

To whom shall i go but Jesus. I can only pray, hope and stay bitter while time slowly fade away; in this life.