Sucksss!!!!

Life suckssss!!!! So so sucksss!!!!!! Wanna know why??? My precious PC is condemned again!!! This is second time already ooo!!!!

Feel so frustrated right now. This is making me sick, I don't even have mood to go for class(I did go), to eat and talk to people!!! Now I am started to hate TROJAN, the cause of what happen to me!!!! Now I finally understand how it feels when your Karma is disturbed. haiz....

I mean, It's my precious PC. Hey, PC!!! Somehow it really effects my mood and i really feel like crying now. Everything just screwed up. Dahla I still have not relieve myself from stressful week and some matters come and kacau me!

I have no one to cry on, have no one to depend on. I am just getting too independent too much until I kept everything for myself only. Sometimes I just feel that its time to give up and wanted to collapsed just like that. Feel like throwing stuffs here and there, vandalize my stuffs, show my mood to everyone and even shout out of no where. But I can't because I know this is wrong.

Well, just have to get a little more stronger to go over this stage again. He is no longer by my side anymore for so long to support me. The promise that he gave will never be fulfilled. Well, it is just some old pictures of us and that is no big deal.

Well, I got to go now as I still have unfinished work.. so chao~~

P/S : faster fixed my PC la~~~

Regards,
Angeline
May God Bless You Always +

Just Come Across My Mind..

hmm.... Feel so awkward somehow in the evening. An incident just went across my mind. Normally people will try to split a couple up if they have a chance rite when they like certain person. I think that is the nature of people want to fight for what they want.

But, instead of provoking them to split I actually helping them to go together again. The strange thing is, I did not sense any forms of jealousy in me instead I hope they will find their good ending.

Is this some kind of joke? I just being Saint? I am out of my mind??

Well, I am really not sure here because this is the first time I actually encounter this situation. maybe I should seek some advice from my fellow readers.

By the way, in the process of changing my blog skin, I actually lose all the settings that I just created. arghhh!!! So sick man... Luckily I manage to recover most of them. I really need a blog expert here. So anyone who would like to help me please yea.. do help.. thanks a lot!!

Now, I am brainstorming and cracking my brain to come out with some marketing and pricing strategies for my assignment. Just have to keep brainstorming my self la... jia ne...

P/S : I Want Holiday!!!!!

Regards,
Angie
May God Bless You Always +

Week Free Is A Myth!!!

arghhhh!!!! I cannot stand it anymore la...
This week free is like a myth!!!
It is so called "Week Free"!!!!

Sad to say but I am not free at all. I feel like jumping off from a building or choke myself with food. sigh.... October as usual every year is the busiest time ever.

All the major assignments due in this month!! Pathetic huh??? oh man.... I wish I could help out my Er Jie Catherine to deal with long house stuff. I am terribly sorry for her... arghhh!!! Did not fulfill my role as her assistant! But I do want to join for the trip to long house again to pass the photos to them and help you with the framing. I will do whatever I can to help. Once I am free I will rush to you. I am so sorry!!!! Luckily got Da Jie Karen who knows really well in editing videos. wawawa.. Thanks Da Jie :)

Everyday is just meetings and meetings. morning wake up to finish off the remaining discussions, afternoon meeting, after that go home rest and continue to do my part!! It's 3 assignment my friends. 3!!! All due in October. sigh sigh sigh..
Not feeling well this few days also. Feel so sick... :/

P/S: My fellow Teammates... We Can Do It!! Gam Ba Re Desu!!!

Regards,
Angie
May God Bless You Always +

My 20th Birthday >o<

Haha.. 10^th October 1987… what’s wrong with this date? Well, the birthday of the blogger for this blog is that date!!! The day that I born to this world, thanks mum and dad; thanks to my aunt who save my life and the most important this is thanks and praise the lord for bringing me to this world on that date. I am already a winner. Let me see… Carlena’s birthday same with me, Snoopy, late Anita Mui, The launching of rocket is 10 October also!! Muahaha…

Well, just gone crazy for a while. Surprisingly I do not really have birthday mood this year because I have been busy with my group assignmentSSss and discussions. Sometime I just think that it is just a birthday, it is not a big deal. Maybe I am trying not to hope gua.. Readers may be wondering whether I have got my bf wrap with Red Ribbon, isn’t it? Haha.. Well, it is just a joke la... I did not get it... lolzzz I will SHOCK to death if I really get it man… no kidding.

Receive a lot of comments and message in Friendster and phone. Have a dinner with Hisham and Irwin at Seahorse for my birthday. Rush to meet Kelly, Raymond and LC for my party and went to Canada hill to celebrate my birthday with Hiew, Yvonne, Cat and Kayren. Fuh!! By the time I reach home, I am a dead fish. But seriously guys, I was surprise with all the surprises that you guys have done for me. I did not expect those, really and I am so touch and grateful. Kelly… thanks for your handmade jelly and pudding and the cake and also the present!!!! Do not know what to say lo~~~ really don’t know how to repay all of you.

Thank you guys for everything!!!!

Wondering about my wish list for my birthday? Well, bf wrap with red ribbon. Hahaha. Nah… it is just a joke. Seriously, I do not know what to wish even. So my first wish end up “I want $$$$”. Second wish is “I want Car!!!”. Lolzzz… took quite a long time for me to think of the third wish man (out of wish…lolzz). Third wish is for me as a secret k?? hehehe… anyway, Happy birthday to the people who has the same birth date also..

Haiz… 20 year old liao lo!!!! Am I really an old virgin now? Hahaha… well, being single is not a sin and I am quite enjoying it for now. Just let the flow move by itself la… who knows… true love may come soon…. Have to throw away all the bad habits now and try to act and practice like an adult to prepare for my adult stage next year ~~ Sound so OLD… sigh

Lastly, I would want to wish myself:-

Happy Birthday!!!

P/S: Always Appreciate What You Have Gained In Your Lifetime.

Regards,
Angie
May God Bless You Always +

Long House Trip

Finally I get a time to update the information on the long house trip previous week. CV! Curtin Sarawak in conjunction with John Curtin Charity Week (JCCW) had organized a few events but I only get to join the events which are the long house trip held on 6^th October ~ 7^th October 2007. Catherine Chia, our Organizing Chairperson and me as her assistant. The long house we went to named Rumah Ampik (hope I did not get the name wrong) and the tuai rumah of the house is Tuai Rumah Ambik.

Day 1 (6^th October 2007)

We departed from campus around 6.45am in the morning and arrive to the destination around 7.45am. I have decided to drive there with my baby (Si Kancil) and 14 of us (including Muslim participants) are quite shock with the short distance to the long house and later we found out that the long house we staying in is the nearest to town compared to the other 3 long houses. Tuai Rumah has already waited for us and he welcomes us to his long house with a warm smile and friendly attitude. After we have settled our stuffs and belongings, we have a short session of breakfast before we begin our community work. Well, actually there isn’t so much to do there because we end up planting plants along the roadside and helping out in the kitchen. Within one hour we all get the stuff done. Fast leh?? Daniel who is our exchange student was very worried when comes to cutting the heart of oil palm tree as the culinary style is different from the western style. Lolzzz….

Lunch time!!!! Well, this is the time that we are really started to enjoy the whole crash course of visiting long house. All sorts of my favorite dish are there!!! Pansuh (Bamboo Chicken), sweet potato leaves, curry, BBQ chicken and more. Those are the foods that really can make you eat quietly. Hahaha.. everybody seems to enjoy the food so much. Too bad those Muslim participants are puasaing. We have a short rest and bath after lunch and preparing for the function in afternoon which is the ceremony of receiving fire extinguishers from Leo Club Miri at 2.00pm. Kayren and I have to dress up with Iban costume to officially welcome all the VIPs and Catherine too have to dress up with Baju Kurung (Trust me; she is really GORGEOUS with that). The whole outfit is very heavy and I have to wear some painful accessories on my hand and leg. Wearing the outfit surely is painful but I think its all worth it.

After all the functions over, we finally have our own free time. As we thought that we can actually have a nap for a while but we are wrong. Tuai Rumah drags us out and starts to drink Tuak (Rice Wine) from one house to another. Then we stop for drinking for a while until dinner is done and started drinking again. Some of us start to feel dizzy and couldn’t stand anymore so they went back to rest. Haiz.. The effects of Tuak sure are strong because even I feel it after drinking so much. Unfortunately our OC collapsed and sleep in her room and left me the assistant alone to handle everything. The feast started and we all are enjoying the performances, dancing and singing all the way until late night and we all went to bed.

Day 2 (7^th October 2007)

Woke up at 7.15am, took a bath, dress up, have breakfast and continue to work for the second day. Well, it is so called “working” but we did not. We walk a long distance under the sun to visit their farm. Their land sure is HUGE. We stop by at a Tebu farm and potato field. After that we headed back to the long house for lunch. Then, we are invited to join a ceremony called “Ranyai” where all of us have to dance around the oil palm tree in the long house and cut a thing off the tree. Haha.. Everyone surely enjoy it so much.

After that, we also perform our dance in front of them as a sign of thank you and appreciation towards the whole long house and it’s too bad that we have to leave the long house today. Feel sad because we have our loving foster parents there who are very friendly and welcoming. We took a lot of pictures with them before we packed and leave the long house. I really miss my foster mum, I can still recall her sad face when we are about to leave. T_T Thanks mum for the well treat for the whole crash course.

The worse thing is before we leave we get to drink Tuak again… haiz… all of us are dizzy on our journey back to campus. Hahaha… well, I think that’s about it. I really hope that I will have a chance to go back to the long house to visit them again. Actually they have invited us for Hari Gawai next year. Hahaha… so happy… this long house trip surely give us the experience for our lifetime that we hardly forget. Sob sob… although this is the third time I been to long house but I really love it man.. Fellow readers have to experience it in order to feel the spirit of the people and culture of Iban. No regret man!!!

P/S : A Crash Course Turn Out To Be An Experience That Could Not Forget For The Lifetime

Regards,
Angie
May God Bless You Always +

Don’t Know What Happen Lately…

Haiz… it’s been a while after since the last post... cannot really update my blog but I definitely will try. Thanks for all the readers who are always there to support me. You know who you are. :)

Well, have the nice prom ever so far. The theme of the prom is “Hollywood- A Night for the stars”. Got a partner for prom and celebrated his birthday during prom also. J Thanks ya... you know who you are. Hope you like the present from me & you know who la. Hahahah… But still there are some moody incidents happen lo~~ during the prom itself, after Prom. haiz… well... If you wish to find more, just keep reading.

First, there have been rumors going around after prom and thanks to SOMEONE who actually contributed to all these things which really piss me off!!! Sorry la... If someone terasa but I do not care. It’s been a year and almost 2 years now, I don’t even interfere your life anymore and almost forgotten you and yet you still try to gather my information about me behind me? As an add-on from me, you also made stories for others to listen? How dare you? I bet you thought I do not know since I do not catch up but sorry yea, because I know every single thing!!! Look, I do not really mind anymore but don’t you think this is stupid? I am not interfering in your life anymore or should I say I do not even care what happen to you anymore. Why? Why you still like that? Seems like you are not growing huh? Well, it is up to you if you like to condemn people. I know you just jealous about what we have. If you want popularity, I’ll give it to you. You want to be superior to me, I’ll be fine with it also if all those things will make you FEEL BETTER. I will just remain quite to those spreading rumors. I do not wish my life to be disturbed anymore. I hope you will move on instead of staying in the past as this will make yourself look so pathetic. Should not have worry about you with that kind of partner. I rest my case here.

Second, haiya... after prom is all about my hectic assignments. Yeah, I have 3 major group assignments going to due in October!! The worse thing is, my 20^th birthday is going to be in this month and I do not think I can celebrate it. Pointless also if I get to celebrate my birthday cause only myself and just like usual with nothing special. Unless got someone wrap him up with RED ribbon and presented to me as a present. Hahaha... jk jk.. But I do hope to have a boyfriend for my birthday. Of course not for the sake of having a boyfriend so I need to love anyone, NO… well, this will lead to another issue that I will discuss further.

Furthermore, I just do not know what happen to me lately. All the bad moods just come without any logical reasons. My heart will go like “DUP, DAP….dup dap…DUP DAP…dup dap...” It is in critical stage. My heart is beating disorder. Not only that, I keep having dreams when I sleep during the day. Too much dreams until to the extent that my head is painful and wanted to puke. Is it because my unbalance hormone? Menstrual? Love? Haiz… I hope not la.. All the ups & downs of my heart are happening frequently. $#@$#@%$^... Do not know what to do with it. I have to apologies if I ever offended someone again… so sorry… but one thing I have to admit is... I do miss someone... I was shocked when I discover that… don’t know whether it mean anything or not. I think I just hang out to much with that someone and cannot get use when he is not around or I did not see him for a day. Maybe this is the reason (convincing myself to believe). Hard to involve in relationship now le... too many things in my mind already...

One last thing before I end my problem, having “FAMILY CIVIL WAR” currently. I just do not understand why adult fight seems so childish to me? And it is all about stupid things that do not worth it. All the jealousy, story making… I do not even know who to trust anymore. I just beg that things will be clear soon so I will not drag into this war anymore. I am very confuse with which is the truth which is not anymore. Pls la.. I don’t want to see my family dream fall apart, a wish that I have been wanted since last time. I want to be set free form all these. Sigh… I love all of you .. pls.. No more suffer.. Try to think of what your children will feel.

Sigh, in short… I have few problems now...

1. Rumors which I do not want to care anymore
2. Get my assignments done
3. No more birthday for me
4. My heartbeat disorder
5. Family civil war

Lord, I sincerely pray that my pathetic life will end soon as I do not think I can take it anymore la… Amen.

P/S : Always Be Strong Of What You Hold On!

Regards,

Tired & frustrated editor :(

May God Bless You Always +