It's All Because of Totoro..

yup... readers please do not misunderstood my meaning.. I am not trying to make Totoro's fan terasa but haha.. there is something that triggered the title of this post.. I'm also a big Totoro fan lol...

Hmm.. what leads to this title? Well, it all happen on the day I come back to Kuching.. the moment I enter my MyV, I saw a Totoro. a BIG one.. and after I got home.. I was like "what the heck?!".. my whole house was full with Totoro's stuff!!!! Then I found out most of my family members started to crazy over Totoro which make me think a bit outdated and too late to crazy over it. =.=""""

That particular moment I was really upset and depress (just come down from plane) so since I saw Totoro(s) around me.. I pointed all the arrows to Totoro(s).
I blame Totoro for casting a spell so I cannot forget...
I blame Totoro cause I cannot get rid of the sweet moments in my head.. it keeps playing over and over again..
I blame Totoro cause I feel so painful...
cause me so coward ..
cause me bored..
cause me feel like a zombie..
cause I am not myself..
cause I grow older so fast..
cause I got a saman when I drive in kuching after a long time..
cause me no pork leg rice once I get back.. only get it the next day.. arghhh!!
cause bla bla bla bla bla.....
Whatever.................

All those things are playing in my head before my dinner time.. That's why ....

It's All Because of Totoro

P/S : Insane soon.. Can't even understand my brain's logic..

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

Moving Forward.. some updates

hey... neglected bloggy for quite a time... I experienced hesitation of blogging for quite a time but now I have decided to continue.. with some fears.. lol.. whatever..

Yup, in Kuching now. Adjusting myself back to normal kuching girl state.. take me quite a long time cause living in Miri too much seems changed me.. sigh.. kind of laid back .... was busy sending my sisters to schools, my mum to work.. dealing with daily chores, learning french and finishing 2 assignments given. I do not feel free at all.. even after semester end and I am in holiday.. I just don;t feel like it.. mixed feelings I am having here..

Thanks for friends who gathered around with me before I come back to Kuching.. the presents are meaningful.. thanks.. those who visited me at the airport.. Thanks again.. I really don't know what to say. Still can recall the moment the plane fly off to kuching, my tears just burst out tremendously all the way back. Everything seems come to an end and new things are waiting for me.. Things that happened, regrets that have created, right or wrong, What lies ahead.. has forced me not to look back.. I have to go and have a new change in me for a better cause.

Well, overall I am doing fine back in Kuching.. met George and Allan and went to The Spring together.. had fun..

Something to share with readers..
haha.. i notice this picture when I rejecting the invitation to go rainforest world music festival this year.. and I notice the picture align on the top right corner in Facebook. Was curious so I went to search for the picture and huala!!! I saw myself in the pic.. lol.... funny la.. the old nerd me..

P/S : gaining weight because of Pork Leg.. wahaha~~~

Regards,
Angie
May God Bless You Always +

Just To Keep In Memory I

Was really stress since Saturday afternoon due to some factors.. My own problem la... Received a call and started to feel so tension about it. As a result, I started to get panic of my exams.. The next thing I do is take up my phone and rang to my Maple partner to call off our game wedding... i just don't have the mood anymore for the wedding.. Really apologise for what had happened.. Try to schedule it to 19th June 2008 la.. right after my exam. Yup, at this pre-exam period.. I am suffering from depression again.. Well, small part is because of the coming exams but the main reason is actually other things where I seldom reveal to people.

Well, forced myself stop to depress and manage to continue my work until 5am in the morning. Obviously I am not in time to go for 8am mass in Mater Dei anymore so I have chosen to go for Youth Mass the next morning. Talked and pray to God about my problems and yea.. feel pretty much relax. As I thought he will not turn up for this mass, he just appear at the last minute before mass starts. That is the moment I realised I miss him so so much.. the more stressful I am, the more I miss him. Maybe partly of me was hoping he could listen to my hardship and say something to cheer me up. Oh well, lets just don't hope too much.

Father keep mentioning the word 'bodoh' (stupid) today.. was a bit shocked... haha.. During singing session, he sings very clear and its very obvious to hear his voice. Well as usual, I was attracted to his voice again.. Maybe I am just perasan.. but when he sings, the togetherness that I felt.. it's just nothing can compare to that. Maybe I'm just the only one who felt it. He always manage to make me smile when he sings. His singing sure is an antidote for my heart cause I feel relieve after that. When I thought of there will be not much time left to hear him sing, somehow I feel sad... shed some tears on the spot and triggered my friend's concerns.. Can't help it...

At least I am not regret to go to today's youth mass. God is always by my side when I needed him.. well, sometimes I can't feel him but I know he is there listen to me whenever I needed him. I'll be strong... Cause I am Angeline, the one and only.

Alright, back to business. Studying for my economics 100 and there are so many diagrams to draw and past year papers to look at.. huhu~~ wish me all the best readers. All the best to readers too .

P/S : Panda eyes.. lalalala.. Panda eyes.. aka.. free make up.. lol!!!!

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

Exam Coming lu~~~

yup yup yup >< .... the period where all curtin students will suffer ... EXAMS is coming!!!!! As usual, will be taking 4 units like every semester. Stress ar.... sleepless night again lo... well, miss my face with panda eyes anyway.. hahaha.... Time really flies... its the end of the semester again.... the time to examine how much effort have we put during our semester, the time to evaluate ourselves, the time to look back what had happened through out the semester and the lessons from it. I have to evaluate myself too not only in terms of academic but my inner self. Every semester I thought I have grow mature... but still there are things that I cannot handle well. Just been pointed out by my friends recently that I still need to practise on observing and thinking critically.. I am not really improve in this stage yet... huhu~~~ sometimes it just feel so tense... Oh well, after exams finish will be rushing back to Kuching for holiday~~~ Kuching food!!!!!!! lol.... Valerian.. come, we go out find nice food again as usual... hehe Before I end this post.. Just wanna say Happy Birthday to nina and nana :). One year older liao oo... have a blessed birthday to both of you ^_^.

For now.. let's just focus on my exam and put aside whatever is bordering me...

P/S: L.L's time is running out... || Wintersnoopy is one more step to the world..

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +