I really wish I could say something right now.... but I am totally wordless.... covered with sorrow and tears....... oh Well, it is the same old thing... good things always comes to its end =) I should have get used to it.. foolish me. Good night

Counting the days before leaving

halo readers....... been not updating my blog .. lol.. keep having fun and going out.. oppssss... sorry... Guess what? Now I'm clearing things up and packing. I wonder how much things I gonna bring back home.. oh man~~~

Only 3 days left in Perth... am I excited? happy? sad? content? or something else? I don't know what am I feeling now..... I only know I am missing food at home.. that's all I am thinking now. Maybe it's just too much to feel or I am just scare to face it...

I guess the only thing that I could do is try to remember my purpose to come here.. come as I am and go back as I am, I'm just taking a holiday here.. that's it, nothing more. Being unable to do anything is tearing me apart but I have no choice... whatever I'm going through here remains here. Unless, unless there is something that can change everything... which I always trying to believe.

P/S : It will never be the same again...

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

Exam ended.. so what?

yeah!!!!!!!! Finally my exam finish leh... thanks for all my friends that supported me through out my exam period.

What now ar? damn bored la...... haha... oh yea. have time to sit down and think of some stuffs dy... yea.. another brainstorming period again...

What else.. hmm.. had a range of holiday plans to "kota".. hehe... can't wait la... now i am retarding around almost 4am in the morning writing this blog declaring my final freedom..

I have to start to wonder issit a real freedom or a short break before a more hectic life coming ahead .. something that I am anticipating now.. Just look forward and go outside you will find a lot of wonderful things in life, don't focus on our past.. that all i can tell myself for now.. I really need that..

P/S : Sigh.... time is running out.. really..

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

One Down, One more to go...

yeeeeha!!!!!!!!!! Finally, OB is tackled!!! I hope .. hahaha........ Next, Small Business... your turn... Once I am finish with you... Merdeka lu~~!!!!

Can't wait to go home.. huhu~~ food is waiting for me.. pork leg ar~~~ Can't believe half a year just gone like that... All I am having now.. sigh... is just for temporary?? Can't I have it forever? Just when I found people who love me for the way I am.... treat me like how I am suppose to be... accepted me as myself.. which I don't have to wear a mask in front of people.. I m gonna leave soon...

I'm finding an answer here... struggling, of course.. for myself. This is a very period I have to be stronger.. I am not the girl who always hide in the bedroom and be sad and put up a face in front of people pretend that I am fine anymore... I don't want to be like that anymore... although i just did.. (I'm suxxx am i?).. sigh...

What can I do leh? Nothing la....... whatever la........ Just want to finish the last paper for now.. and think about all those things after that.. yup.. a definite thing to do...

P/S : Devil... go away. .. I won't get influence by you =P

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

"Beforemath" of my exam

Alright... currently sitting at the new computer zone in Curtin University Library named "i-Zone".. pretty cool setting here.... ok... that's not my point here..

Finally got my nerve back.. and started my revision... I hope it's not too late!!! This is a unit that stress out whoever is enrolling in it... oh man.... I'm so gonna pass this unit if not I will be graduating with Tony in 2010~~!!!! I don't want la.....

Time flies so fast.. haha it's exam time again.. It feels like I just have my exams one month ago and tada... here goes another one... feel like having SPM every semester.. lol~~

Anyway, for the cause(temptating holiday plans ahead & future life) I will try my best to pass this unit aka nightmare..... God Bless Me +

P/S : For The Cause!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Regards,

Ying

May God Bless You Always +

All We Are - Matt Nathanson

I tasted, tasted love so sweet
And all of it was lost on me
Buttons sold like property
Sugar on my tongue

I kept falling over
I kept looking backward
I went broke believing
That the simple should be hard

All we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful

I wasted, wasted love for you
Traded out for something new
Well, it's hard to change the way you lose
If you think you never won

'Couse all we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful

And in the end the words won't matter
'Couse in the end tothing stays the same
And in the end dreams just scatter and fall like rain

'Couse all we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful, something real

All we are we are
All we are we are
And every day is a start of something beautiful, beautiful

P/S : It's my favourite One Tree Hill !!! Reflects our life a lot...

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

Where is my nerve?

halo... did anyone see my nerve somewhere? I'm serious readers..... WHERE IS MY NERVE??!!!! wuwuwuwuwuwu~~~~~~~ I don't feel panic at all.... Keep reminding myself EXAM IS NEAR!!!!! but i don't feel the urge to study.. I'm not kidding.. I don't have any urge to study now.. cause I just simply don't feel it!

A lot of my friends always thought I am very hardworking in studying for exams.. but seriously .. no man.. no.. sigh.... It's my last battle and yet.. I am acting like a slacking queen.... damn man...

Well, i might get my nerve back in 1 more day i guess..... hope it will come back b4 exams start so i can get myself sitting down and study! =P

P/S : WTFBBQ again.. sigh

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

A pre-exciting moment

A once 17-year-old girl
Started her Uni life in Miri
As a Marketing & Management student
And being part of CV!

She was once introvert and naive
Gone through countless obstacles
Heartbreaking moments
Betraying moments
Confusing moments
Glorious moments
Cold-hearted moments
During the four years in university

All the moments has shape "her" today
Exam is approaching and time is running out
An exciting feeling that everything is going to end soon
An anticipating moment awaiting new things in life
A sad moment where regrets takes place of things left behind
A feeling which is meant to be kept in silence for everyone's sake
An acceptance that we have to enjoy the fullest before good things meet its end as usual

Sometimes she wish that things will not happen
But she realized without going through those moments she won't grow
For the sake of future
It's surely is painful and suffocating
Torturing her from time to time
So she believe that moving on is the best way
Following God's path will lead her to the answer that she wanted
And life goes on
Time will not wait
With those pains and sweet memories

P/S : Exam ar~~~~~

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

My 21st Birthday Bash At Utopia - 10.10.08

After the birthday surprise.. the next day I have booked a room with Eric's help at Utopia for a karaoke session!!! Glad that everyone having their wonderful time there.. haha.. we started around 8.20pm and end at 1.30am.. oh wow.. really fantastic man... haha... Let's take a look of some snap shots of the night.

Having pizza from Domino as dinner.. hehe


From left: Ian, Christine, Andy and James

Ivan and Christobel duet

Ivan and Waikit duet


Adrian and me duet


Nicole and me =)

This is just funny!!! haha~~!!!!

Sharon and me

Adrian having fun singing XD

All the girl during the night

YMCA~~~~!!!


Dance man dance!!




ahahah.. syok ar!

All of us posing at Utopia before go home.. Thanks guys!!

P/S : Have to appreciate what I have now ar~~!!!

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

My 21st Surprise - 09.10.08

It happen during 12am.. of course.. haha.. I was doing my assignment when suddenly Alex called me to go over his flat around 11.45pm. Was hesitate at first cause part of my assignment is still empty.. oh man.. but Alex seems insisted so.. I went over for a while for a chit chat session.

Adrian came and talk to me for a while as well and wished me an early 21st birthday before he go to bed since he was complaining that he is sleepy.. hahaha...

I did not suspect anything at all.. what the hell... Then Alex suddenly pop in and told me something serious happened at t he balkani so I rushed out with him to the balkani and looking all over the floor to search for things that he mentioned.. Alex remind me to look to the ground floor instead and I'm so SHOCK!! A big candle lighted wording 21 is project in front of me at the ground floor and everyone is there saying HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me!!! Guess what.. the person who complained sleepy and suppose gone to bed is standing down there with his pyjamas.. haha!!!

My damn SHOCK expression on the balkani.. hahaha.. Alex is standing beside me..

The Birthday Surprise Team XD

The Caramel Cake and 21 candle light sign made by fellow friends

Taking Photo with my 21 sign .. haha

Prepare to blow of the candle lu~~

A "Present" by Sharon.. A lot of Traps contained

Open the present layer by layer to complete some mission before reach my real present.. Sharon ar.. u ar.. haha.. The details of the missions.. ahem sorry readers.. *private and confidential* =)

After eating cake all of us posing before go home.. 2am plus eh~~~ haha

Before I end this post .. wanna show my appreciation and gratefulness towards my friends who came to surprise me! Big Thanks to Sharon, Eric and James for organising the surprise XD... Thanks to Alex, Adrian, Ivan, Waikit, Andy, Jerome, Ian, Nicole, Christine, Siobhan(Thanks even you have to rush assignment =)), Caroline and Christobel !!! I hope I did not miss out anyone here.. please do correct me ooo if I left out anyone.. =)

P/S: A really unforgettable Birthday I can remember for the rest of my life!!!

Regards,

Ying

May God Bless You Always +

Aftermath of 1st semester 2008

hmm.. time flies so so so so so fast wo.... it's almost the end of the year again... In just few months I am facing such big change. Started a temporally new life in Australia, meet new people.. new hope.. new things... everything new la.. Moving on well.. I really thought I have moving on well....

Just realised recently that all this while I am still kinda escaping from the hurt that I have before.. This explained my frequent chest pain these few days.. I have closed this issue properly haven't I? I should have.. I have new things to help me starting off a new life... new hope... I should be appreciative that God has given me a new chance to face life. People around me is changing.. they move on too.. Suddenly it's just make me feel that I am still unchanged, YET. Why i said this? I'm having hard time to admit that I still feel the pain once in a while.. hurt so much.. so damn much! Frustrated...

This has caused me holding back on something else as well.... and that suxxx... super suxxxx... once again I have trapped myself in this drama queen dilemma.. pathetically saying.. I'm just simply NOT READY.. still need some time to heal myself.. all and all.. i should know that things has done is done, happiness is in the future.. i can create it with my own hands.. with my own effort.. and this "looking behind" symptom is a downturn and obstacle to this mission of mine...

I won't give up... even though i might be crying sometimes and hurt but I won't give up in what I am doing now.. cause I deserve the happiness that I really wanted and I want to make it happen for the best of me.

P/S : It's just like folding back to an old photo album thinking about memories.. MOVE ON!!! He is just not for you anymore.. need I say more?

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

Coming Soon - My 21st

P/S : OMGWTFBBQ!!!! No time to update my blog man!!! well, this is just a preview.. will update Soon!! Soon enough.. after 2 assignments due first la.. hehe

Perth Zoo & Perth Royal Show 2.10.08

It's Thursday morning and I have tons of plans for the day already .. Since it's free week so I grabbed this chance to go and explore ore about Perth.. so I have decide to go to Perth Zoo with some of my friends ....... hehe.. let's check it out...
There are lots of photos in the Zoo but i did not upload all ... can go and check my Facebook if readers wanna see more.. ^^

That is the entrance to Perth Zoo

Me riding on a Radant.. haha

I am just so proud with my photo . haha feel like a part of monkey family dy.. wahahha.. Alex... is the one kissing the mother monkey on the right!!!! wahahaha

After that, Alex, Caroline and me went to DOME in South Perth waiting for Bro Adrian to finish his shift since he is following us to go Perth royal show later on. While waiting, we had our lunch and me have a short nap there as well.. hehe

My favourite Risotto and Alex's Breakfast set!! Tempting man~~

Caroline and me in DOME..

All of Us posing At South Perth Ferry to go to City centre

Reach Claremont Showground (where Perth Royal Show located) around 4pm and waited for Carrie to bring our tickets...

This photo is taken on the chair lift which will bring us round the whole Perth Royal Show.. guess whose is whose?? haha

From Left : Carrie, Caroline, me and Bro Adrian

The best part of the night comes in when Fireworks launched.. Photos and description really cannot describe how amazing it is man.. readers have to come and experience it yourself!!! No kidding!

Some of the best shot I got.. sigh.. still ok la.. haha

P/S : I wanna Go again la~~~~

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

A Trip To Mandurah

Halo everyone.. how's free week so far? Must have planned to travel to somewhere interesting and fun.... Anyway, me and my friends headed to Mandurah. If everyone wonders where is Mandurah, Just go to Google earth or map and you will find it.. haha This is my first time ever Kayaking and first time ever wearing Bikini.. omg~~~

First stop is --- Fish n Chips!! My all-time favorite.. haiyo.. which means gain weight also .. lol...

See??? Seafood Tray.. so tempting right? hohoho~~~

During the process of making fool of myself~~~ wahahhaha

Sharon and me with our food

A giant chair at the roadside .. cool man~~


Posing and preparation before go for Kayak!!


Some of the views around the canal ...




Boat Crash !! haha It's so fun and great to Kayak with a bunch of friends XD


This is the most awkward thing we ever found during Kayaking session.. There's actually a doll sitting on a chair fishing! arghh~~~ cute..


This photo is nice.. Taken from the top of ferris wheel after Kayaking..


Chasing for sunset.. luckily manage to catch the last little part of it.. hahaha

All of us really have lots of fun despite the tiredness that we felt after that.. lol... too bad we are not lucky enough to see Dolphin but will definitely try again next time.. Definitely XD

P/S : Wish you were right here sharing my great times..

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +