hmm.. time flies so so so so so fast wo.... it's almost the end of the year again... In just few months I am facing such big change. Started a temporally new life in Australia, meet new people.. new hope.. new things... everything new la.. Moving on well.. I really thought I have moving on well....
Just realised recently that all this while I am still kinda escaping from the hurt that I have before.. This explained my frequent chest pain these few days.. I have closed this issue properly haven't I? I should have.. I have new things to help me starting off a new life... new hope... I should be appreciative that God has given me a new chance to face life. People around me is changing.. they move on too.. Suddenly it's just make me feel that I am still unchanged, YET. Why i said this? I'm having hard time to admit that I still feel the pain once in a while.. hurt so much.. so damn much! Frustrated...
This has caused me holding back on something else as well.... and that suxxx... super suxxxx... once again I have trapped myself in this drama queen dilemma.. pathetically saying.. I'm just simply NOT READY.. still need some time to heal myself.. all and all.. i should know that things has done is done, happiness is in the future.. i can create it with my own hands.. with my own effort.. and this "looking behind" symptom is a downturn and obstacle to this mission of mine...
I won't give up... even though i might be crying sometimes and hurt but I won't give up in what I am doing now.. cause I deserve the happiness that I really wanted and I want to make it happen for the best of me.
P/S : It's just like folding back to an old photo album thinking about memories.. MOVE ON!!! He is just not for you anymore.. need I say more?
Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +
Just realised recently that all this while I am still kinda escaping from the hurt that I have before.. This explained my frequent chest pain these few days.. I have closed this issue properly haven't I? I should have.. I have new things to help me starting off a new life... new hope... I should be appreciative that God has given me a new chance to face life. People around me is changing.. they move on too.. Suddenly it's just make me feel that I am still unchanged, YET. Why i said this? I'm having hard time to admit that I still feel the pain once in a while.. hurt so much.. so damn much! Frustrated...
This has caused me holding back on something else as well.... and that suxxx... super suxxxx... once again I have trapped myself in this drama queen dilemma.. pathetically saying.. I'm just simply NOT READY.. still need some time to heal myself.. all and all.. i should know that things has done is done, happiness is in the future.. i can create it with my own hands.. with my own effort.. and this "looking behind" symptom is a downturn and obstacle to this mission of mine...
I won't give up... even though i might be crying sometimes and hurt but I won't give up in what I am doing now.. cause I deserve the happiness that I really wanted and I want to make it happen for the best of me.
P/S : It's just like folding back to an old photo album thinking about memories.. MOVE ON!!! He is just not for you anymore.. need I say more?
Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +
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