Vampire

I feel like a vampire today,
Cold blooded, with numb look,
"Feelingless" towards life,
Feel no humor,
Feel no love,
Feel no joy.....
I need Blood to ease

I feel pain,
I feel sorrow,
I feel disappointment,
I feel hopeless,
I feel tears flow down my chin,
I feel just like before, nothing change.....
No matter how many chances have given.
I need Blood to ease

P/S : I'm really not in the mood right now...

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

Good Grief~! Am Working!

Yes~~!!!! I finally started working at one of the biggest government corporation in Sarawak. Well, just a trainee so far for 6 months.

Been pretty busy recently because I am working on development of Marketing division guideline and kits. To add-on, I am the pioneer in developing this standard processes in the division... Indeed, I am pretty STRESSFUL in working this out.. Trials & errors, mistakes... keep coming into my way.

At least now I have partially completed the guides.. one more month left to finish off the whole thing man~! There are gonna be more government reports and statistics for me to read and crack my head off! Super depressing... arghh.... The word omfg was flashing in my head when I saw those books lying down on my table NICELY after I finish dispatching all the documents to each floors in the building.... =_=''''

While I am busy doing my own work... I have came across of working culture in the workplace.

8am - Read newspaper and eating breakfast
10am - Break time & eat again
1pm - Lunch time
3pm - Break time & EATTT again
5pm go home....

How are those people gonna lose their weight in this kind of condition? Yet still come to me and keep saying.. "I have to lose weight la~~!!!". Good Grief!

Apart from all those things.. I have benefited a lot through this corporation because trainings to improve ourselves is provided (In hotel somemore!). Well, anticipating what is gonna happen next .. haha

P/S : I need a holiday break~!

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

Missing

Missing can be deadly isn't it? Such a mental torture when you miss someone, something etc...... It is even harder when you realize the time you have spent on is long and precious; that you never wanna lose it..

You will only realize that you never wanna let it go until you are gone to sometime.. somewhere.. that's what missing is about i guess... There's once someone told me.. Don't hang on too strong on something ... it will sink you down...

But again I think, if we don't hold on tight to something that is precious to us.. it means nothing to us already... or it is just an excuse to hide the true feelings that hide somewhere in our inner part? or it is just simply a way to protect one self from hurtful feelings at the end? Maybe it's just cold blooded nature?

This is indeed has been a question mark in my life..

P/S : I am not Thinking too much.. there is something missing in me..

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

Unconcious Intention

Have readers ever try to think back all the things that we have commit before; whether it’s good or bad? I hope certainly not the bad ones….

I do wonder, about things I have done before and thinking why? Everybody has a rational brain even me.. but sometimes, although my brain is, it can break down too and cause me doing something which is beyond my own expectation.

After quite some time, a lonngggg one… while I was driving to work, I started to realize about human’s unconscious intention. Well, at least these could explain human’s out-of-their-mind act.

This is how scary the power of unconscious intention within us.. It is strong enough to invade our mind. By the time we realize it, “Opppsss, I did it again!”. I guess, good and strong unconscious intention is always a good thing. Imagine one with over rationalize brain… you won’t be seeing them kneeling down in front of their fiancé proposing.. haha!! But, be careful when these unconscious intentions are the other way round, those negatives ones. Well, you are lucky you not ending up stabbing you girl/boyfriend because they betray you or what not :P…

Before ending this crappy post, just wanna say that whether or not your unconscious intention is positive or negative, we will get to one fact: what we want will reveal to ourselves in the matter of time. Sometimes, what we wanted isn’t what we wanted…

P/S : I think I am not thinking rationally recently :P

Regards,

Ying

May God Bless You Always +