This Is The Time

Is this the time? The time where tests are coming towards me in my early 20's. If life has its ups and downs.. I believe I am at the very down period now.

Issit the boring life that I am going through? Issit my never ever cure sickness? Issit friends that are not beside me anymore? Things that change? Because I don't feel like it when doing things. I'm not that into things anymore. Initially I believe in something but recently, I thought that maybe It's better that I just do not believe and give effort in it anymore. Yes, I am GIVING UP, just because I don't want to hurt myself at the end.

While I was watching dramas, a person came across my mind. It's the old English man that I've met before in Perth during outing. It's a blessed to have known his story of life and his wife. Looking at the old English man.. all I am thinking were life the short lifespan of us, all of us. I always wonder what if I .. will become like the old man? Always believe in what he believe in, till the end of his life.

Just a blink, I've already in my 20's. huhu~~ how shocking.. haha.. Sometimes regret on something.. oh well, even though people tell me to not regret say what I wanna say and do what I wanna do.. but still . it's just an excuse to avoid regrets. I guess, I still have a long way to go .. till then.... what holding me now is a cross.. a believe that I don't want to lose..

P/S : Wonder why he came across in my mind leh?

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always+

Trip to Kuala Lumpur 6th feb ~ 8th Feb 2009

Yup, second time in my life time am actually step on KL's land! Still quite forgetful about last trip to KL.. haha.. Anyway, here are some updates when I am in KL. Arrive Kuala Lumpur around 10.30pm. Belle and Ian came to fetch me at KL central and went to Ampang picked up Augustine.

Augustine & I meeting up at some mamak stall.. yum yum

Christobel and Ian .. They are doing great!

The next day, finally I step into IKEA!!! wut!! Met up with John and Johari.. hehe.. and shop for some stuffs in IKEA...

IKEA

FOOOOOOOOD~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!

Meatballs from IKEA leh~~!! Nice.. But Perth's nicer.. hehe

Left: Johnna & me Right: Johnna, me & Johari

Belle & me..

After shopping at IKEA, Johnna, Johari, Belle and I went to The Curve for a walk and shopping... so many attractions around that I never see in Sarawak.. learn new things here.. cool wei~~

Passed by DOME! and saw this.. haha.. I love Ice chocolate so much =)


Went to mass after that with Belle.. almost fall asleep hehe..


Belle, me & Ian hanging out at Belle's place

hehe.... playing with Ian's BIG BIKE!

This picture took at the airport before I am going off back to Kuching... was so sad.. lol.. Thanks guys for everything in KL!! Will definitely meet you guys again when I had the time.. never regret this trip.

P/S : Going out is always a good thing to clear your mind =)

Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +

Sometimes

Read a story today. Makes me wonder that :

Sometimes, when a person trying to say the thing that they wanted to, they ended up saying things opposite from their will. Simply it's because of concerning too much on how the other person feels and what will happen after saying it. At the end, people will just hide the things deep inside their heart, pretending and moving forward leaving regrets forever. Pretending like nothing happen, building walls in the heart to protect their ego & pride. Some might even think of hurting others first before others did.

Sometimes, lies are not bad things at all. Well, it might sounds like an excuse when people say it's with good intention but somehow, it works. Come to think of it, there are no absolute good & bad, right & wrong, justice & evil because there is a balance in everything in life. There's always problems when trust is involved. Trust can't forgive any lies, no matter it's good intention or the opposite. Lying once can lead to similar scenarios next time and might be bad.

Sometimes, rational and irrational can compliment each other. Ironically, people who are rational often feels that irrational people are out of their mind and ridiculous because they do things randomly. Same thing happens to the other side where irrational people thinks that rational people are too organized and inflexible because they lack of creativity. Oh well, how long can we argue about this issue? haha... it always been such a Hot Cili among people. Remember, there is always a balance in everything. A little irrational can spice up your life while a little rational keeps people doing the right thing.

Sometimes, love can be so devastating and painful, when the right person and the right time is not with you. Maybe there's the right person but not the right time; right timing but not the right person? haha.. either one will be really depressing. Well, it could be really painful and makes you wonder, why.. why and WHY? For those who are lucky to have the one you love most, congrats. Love can be classify as unsolved mystery since not much people believe in it anymore. Well, don't give up.. being painful and devastating is absolutely normal. Some might have scars carrying with them in life but it is for better future and hope. God loves us even though we can't see it, feel it. God's presence is always there, looking after us.

Sometimes, people would not know what is important to them after things have lose from their site, then they will realize. Feel like you gonna regret for the rest of your life! Even though for some people they know what is important to them but unable to do anything about it is the same thing. Uncertainties, changes and twist in life always lead you to an unexpected outcomes.

Sometimes, writer likes to remind people about all these but always did not remind herself about what she should do.. haha........ she as well are facing things that hardly decide. She as well putting a mask on her face, try to ignore and hide in order to move on. Having a dream.. what she could do now is really try to put everything in God's hand and believe.

P/S : Sometimes I just wish that rational person will be somewhat a little bit irrational =P

Regards,
Ying
May god bless you always +