Was really stress since Saturday afternoon due to some factors.. My own problem la... Received a call and started to feel so tension about it. As a result, I started to get panic of my exams.. The next thing I do is take up my phone and rang to my Maple partner to call off our game wedding... i just don't have the mood anymore for the wedding.. Really apologise for what had happened.. Try to schedule it to 19th June 2008 la.. right after my exam. Yup, at this pre-exam period.. I am suffering from depression again.. Well, small part is because of the coming exams but the main reason is actually other things where I seldom reveal to people.
Well, forced myself stop to depress and manage to continue my work until 5am in the morning. Obviously I am not in time to go for 8am mass in Mater Dei anymore so I have chosen to go for Youth Mass the next morning. Talked and pray to God about my problems and yea.. feel pretty much relax. As I thought he will not turn up for this mass, he just appear at the last minute before mass starts. That is the moment I realised I miss him so so much.. the more stressful I am, the more I miss him. Maybe partly of me was hoping he could listen to my hardship and say something to cheer me up. Oh well, lets just don't hope too much.
Father keep mentioning the word 'bodoh' (stupid) today.. was a bit shocked... haha.. During singing session, he sings very clear and its very obvious to hear his voice. Well as usual, I was attracted to his voice again.. Maybe I am just perasan.. but when he sings, the togetherness that I felt.. it's just nothing can compare to that. Maybe I'm just the only one who felt it. He always manage to make me smile when he sings. His singing sure is an antidote for my heart cause I feel relieve after that. When I thought of there will be not much time left to hear him sing, somehow I feel sad... shed some tears on the spot and triggered my friend's concerns.. Can't help it...
At least I am not regret to go to today's youth mass. God is always by my side when I needed him.. well, sometimes I can't feel him but I know he is there listen to me whenever I needed him. I'll be strong... Cause I am Angeline, the one and only.
Alright, back to business. Studying for my economics 100 and there are so many diagrams to draw and past year papers to look at.. huhu~~ wish me all the best readers. All the best to readers too
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P/S :
Panda eyes.. lalalala.. Panda eyes.. aka.. free make up.. lol!!!!
Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +
Well, forced myself stop to depress and manage to continue my work until 5am in the morning. Obviously I am not in time to go for 8am mass in Mater Dei anymore so I have chosen to go for Youth Mass the next morning. Talked and pray to God about my problems and yea.. feel pretty much relax. As I thought he will not turn up for this mass, he just appear at the last minute before mass starts. That is the moment I realised I miss him so so much.. the more stressful I am, the more I miss him. Maybe partly of me was hoping he could listen to my hardship and say something to cheer me up. Oh well, lets just don't hope too much.
Father keep mentioning the word 'bodoh' (stupid) today.. was a bit shocked... haha.. During singing session, he sings very clear and its very obvious to hear his voice. Well as usual, I was attracted to his voice again.. Maybe I am just perasan.. but when he sings, the togetherness that I felt.. it's just nothing can compare to that. Maybe I'm just the only one who felt it. He always manage to make me smile when he sings. His singing sure is an antidote for my heart cause I feel relieve after that. When I thought of there will be not much time left to hear him sing, somehow I feel sad... shed some tears on the spot and triggered my friend's concerns.. Can't help it...
At least I am not regret to go to today's youth mass. God is always by my side when I needed him.. well, sometimes I can't feel him but I know he is there listen to me whenever I needed him. I'll be strong... Cause I am Angeline, the one and only.
Alright, back to business. Studying for my economics 100 and there are so many diagrams to draw and past year papers to look at.. huhu~~ wish me all the best readers. All the best to readers too
.P/S :
Panda eyes.. lalalala.. Panda eyes.. aka.. free make up.. lol!!!!Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +
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