Haiz… it’s been a while after since the last post... cannot really update my blog but I definitely will try. Thanks for all the readers who are always there to support me. You know who you are. :)
Well, have the nice prom ever so far. The theme of the prom is “Hollywood- A Night for the stars”. Got a partner for prom and celebrated his birthday during prom also. J Thanks ya... you know who you are. Hope you like the present from me & you know who la. Hahahah… But still there are some moody incidents happen lo~~ during the prom itself, after Prom. haiz… well... If you wish to find more, just keep reading.
First, there have been rumors going around after prom and thanks to SOMEONE who actually contributed to all these things which really piss me off!!! Sorry la... If someone terasa but I do not care. It’s been a year and almost 2 years now, I don’t even interfere your life anymore and almost forgotten you and yet you still try to gather my information about me behind me? As an add-on from me, you also made stories for others to listen? How dare you? I bet you thought I do not know since I do not catch up but sorry yea, because I know every single thing!!! Look, I do not really mind anymore but don’t you think this is stupid? I am not interfering in your life anymore or should I say I do not even care what happen to you anymore. Why? Why you still like that? Seems like you are not growing huh? Well, it is up to you if you like to condemn people. I know you just jealous about what we have. If you want popularity, I’ll give it to you. You want to be superior to me, I’ll be fine with it also if all those things will make you FEEL BETTER. I will just remain quite to those spreading rumors. I do not wish my life to be disturbed anymore. I hope you will move on instead of staying in the past as this will make yourself look so pathetic. Should not have worry about you with that kind of partner. I rest my case here.
Second, haiya... after prom is all about my hectic assignments. Yeah, I have 3 major group assignments going to due in October!! The worse thing is, my 20th birthday is going to be in this month and I do not think I can celebrate it. Pointless also if I get to celebrate my birthday cause only myself and just like usual with nothing special. Unless got someone wrap him up with RED ribbon and presented to me as a present. Hahaha... jk jk.. But I do hope to have a boyfriend for my birthday. Of course not for the sake of having a boyfriend so I need to love anyone, NO… well, this will lead to another issue that I will discuss further.
Furthermore, I just do not know what happen to me lately. All the bad moods just come without any logical reasons. My heart will go like “DUP, DAP….dup dap…DUP DAP…dup dap...” It is in critical stage. My heart is beating disorder. Not only that, I keep having dreams when I sleep during the day. Too much dreams until to the extent that my head is painful and wanted to puke. Is it because my unbalance hormone? Menstrual? Love? Haiz… I hope not la.. All the ups & downs of my heart are happening frequently. $#@$#@%$^... Do not know what to do with it. I have to apologies if I ever offended someone again… so sorry… but one thing I have to admit is... I do miss someone... I was shocked when I discover that… don’t know whether it mean anything or not. I think I just hang out to much with that someone and cannot get use when he is not around or I did not see him for a day. Maybe this is the reason (convincing myself to believe). Hard to involve in relationship now le... too many things in my mind already...
One last thing before I end my problem, having “FAMILY CIVIL WAR” currently. I just do not understand why adult fight seems so childish to me? And it is all about stupid things that do not worth it. All the jealousy, story making… I do not even know who to trust anymore. I just beg that things will be clear soon so I will not drag into this war anymore. I am very confuse with which is the truth which is not anymore. Pls la.. I don’t want to see my family dream fall apart, a wish that I have been wanted since last time. I want to be set free form all these. Sigh… I love all of you .. pls.. No more suffer.. Try to think of what your children will feel.
Sigh, in short… I have few problems now...
- Rumors which I do not want to care anymore
- Get my assignments done
- No more birthday for me
- My heartbeat disorder
- Family civil war
Lord, I sincerely pray that my pathetic life will end soon as I do not think I can take it anymore la… Amen.
P/S : Always Be Strong Of What You Hold On!
Regards,
Tired & frustrated editor :(
May God Bless You Always +
1 comment:
Hey angeline... u will do great in ur life.. If u put ur trust in the lord, he will set u fre.. Continue 2 pray n I will continue 2 pray 4 u..
If u need a fren, I m here 2 listen 2 u, u need help, I will try 2 help u.
Never gv up... if u fall its ok.. u stil can get up. but if u quite wat ur doing, den all ur effort go 2 waste..
n for d person ho bad mouth u, js don bother bout him/her.. i experience d same thing as u. if u ignore him/her, eventually he/she will nt disturb u anymore...
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