Yea... I am not as free as I think.. semester has started but I only got classes on Wednesday and Thursday.. I should be super free isn't it?? wow.. i just found out that my whole week is actually fully occupied.. Monday and Tuesday and Saturday I have to work till my leg break.. Wednesday and Thursday study except friday is the only free day but not free at all when comes to do assignments... oh man.. now I am as busy as someone.. maybe more busier..
Things was going great and smooth so far.. wanted to settle down.. except something just keep bothering me.. I have been a failure and walk away from home just to escape.. I thought this escaping is meant to be... again.. i was wrong.. I still haunted by things.. things that I still care of.. I choose to be a loser and go away.. can't just let me go? the feeling of a loser is not sweet at all!! why am I still care? sh!t.. keep scolding myself.. blame myself for being too stupid.. Sh!T .. it's my turn to get tied up by the past this time!!! My time was fully occupied and yet my brain still have rooms to think about all those things... God, pls la don't tempt me.. don't look up to me so much.. I am a human who has limit in enduring also ..
I guess it's time to be the old me again.. it's aint that bad although i have few bad habits but as long as I am happy with it.. who cares.. no one cares the true me.. even him.. Well, that shows that we human never had the power of changing someone.. only god can... as things are seems meant to be at the first place.. it is just not anymore.. Everything is so damn wrong to me now! I give up.. i can't full fill your will, Lord.. I can't hold on and stay on and don't give up... All I can do now is pray and wait..
What's left?? There's nothing left... only left 2 lines of tears and a malfunction heart (literally ok?) where only one key can patch it up... This is just part of my stories.. imagine there's billions or even trillions people in the world and they all have their own stories .. amazing isn't it?? I am just a tiny dot in this universe.. But one day.. as our light of life fading, our story will come to an end as well... Do live an amazing life..
P/S : ..Is definitely Two Face .. I dislike two face .. twisted personality.. will two face wake up from his nightmare? Lets hope and pray about it.. He deserve a better life... Doesn't he?
Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +
Things was going great and smooth so far.. wanted to settle down.. except something just keep bothering me.. I have been a failure and walk away from home just to escape.. I thought this escaping is meant to be... again.. i was wrong.. I still haunted by things.. things that I still care of.. I choose to be a loser and go away.. can't just let me go? the feeling of a loser is not sweet at all!! why am I still care? sh!t.. keep scolding myself.. blame myself for being too stupid.. Sh!T .. it's my turn to get tied up by the past this time!!! My time was fully occupied and yet my brain still have rooms to think about all those things... God, pls la don't tempt me.. don't look up to me so much.. I am a human who has limit in enduring also ..
I guess it's time to be the old me again.. it's aint that bad although i have few bad habits but as long as I am happy with it.. who cares.. no one cares the true me.. even him.. Well, that shows that we human never had the power of changing someone.. only god can... as things are seems meant to be at the first place.. it is just not anymore.. Everything is so damn wrong to me now! I give up.. i can't full fill your will, Lord.. I can't hold on and stay on and don't give up... All I can do now is pray and wait..
What's left?? There's nothing left... only left 2 lines of tears and a malfunction heart (literally ok?) where only one key can patch it up... This is just part of my stories.. imagine there's billions or even trillions people in the world and they all have their own stories .. amazing isn't it?? I am just a tiny dot in this universe.. But one day.. as our light of life fading, our story will come to an end as well... Do live an amazing life..
P/S : ..Is definitely Two Face .. I dislike two face .. twisted personality.. will two face wake up from his nightmare? Lets hope and pray about it.. He deserve a better life... Doesn't he?
Regards,
Ying
May God Bless You Always +
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