Happiness is nothing but art and i have failed

Once, I only wished our friendship and momentum will keep on going.

Once, I only wished for the connection and understanding.

Once, I only wished for your hands to be held close to me, the kisses that turned my world upside down, the right moments that we spent together, the same wavelength that we synced, sharing the fragments of our soul where we belong together. 

I thought after all that i could be contented and be at peace but i was wrong. I have asked God to grant me the experience and he did.. but i wasn't contented; wasn't satisfy.  I became greedy. I wanted more and more .. for me to belong to and belong to me. 

All I could feel is this moment and i just don't wanna go home right now. I had to convince myself that God's plan is always more beautiful than my desire and that I had to force myself to stay patient and obedient towards His timing. All of these just because we are the species where we are the so called better and stronger people. How many episodes i have to go through in this life? How many heartbreaks, regrets and suffering that I have to go through? I am just a mere human. 

My doppelganger, my nemesis, my beloved...
I sang a song but no one hears, I screaming now but you're not here. All I wanna do is to say I love you. 
My doppelganger, my nemesis, my beloved...

I can only bury you deep down inside my heart and my soul.

My doppelganger, my nemesis, my beloved... 

my heart has hope and agony in parallel. 

My doppelganger, my nemesis, my beloved... 

when everything's meant to be broken, i just want you to know who I am.