I Had Enough.. more than enough

Ha~! Yup, sue me or send me on the chop board as I have not been updating this space here. hmm.. was out of inspiration for quite sometime. Yea, impacts has negative effects on inspiration you know? But who cares anyway? Who will? No one ever will except GOD! Well, Let's just get in straight...

I believe everyone been young before (for those who say NO, I believe you came from outer space :P)? When we are young, it always feels like the end of the world but actually.. It's just the beginning of life... of everything.. It's does not seems that bad when you grew up because there's so much more things when you grew up. I guess this is the privilege of being young .. I can't believe I'm talking about this like I am someone over 30 years old~! but i do wish i have rights to feel that way. to feel like it's the end of the world... at least it will be easier ....

Realizing my sense of response always slower than normal people, even at the moment that I lost something really important but I took a long time to realize the sense of losing.. ha..! The feeling of wanting to jump off from a building.. or when you wake up every morning but you wish you could have never woke up... then when you realize you are behaving in a such irresponsible way and you know that you can't behave that way... I am telling you for the rest of the day; or days even months.. that feelings will implant inside you when you smile to your colleagues or your friends; when you are eating your meal; when you are bathing; when you are watching TV and when you are sleeping. Believe me, the next day will be another same cycle again.

Realizing it now is better than you realize later in life where regrets eating you up. Allow me to be unreasonable and irresponsible for a while as i am not as generous as I thought I am .. at least towards this.. Allow me to be childish for a while.. I know this will be disappointing for you (or maybe not). There's always reasons things happened this way and I just don't get it yet. I am not a saint.. :(

How I wish I could FORGET than remembering like you did, it would be so much easier for me. Feeling like a foolish for being so contented for so long. Well, life still long.. let's see how it turns out..

P.S : One day, I will have the courage and generosity to give you blessings..

Regards,

Ying

May God Bless You Always +