Hi readers, read my previous blog post? Waiting for the result? Well, one thing that I have to say is..... ok.. I'll start of with what happen during camp, is that fine? Basically, I have been concentrating on the activities for the camp itself until I have forgotten about it. haizz..... I think a part of me is too nervous and wanted me to forget about it eh. Was expecting him for the whole day and I finally see him during the night but do not talk much. Later I went to LT for Dr Adeline's session's on 'What Is Love?'. Her speech was nice man. haha.. Then he came in and sit beside me. That is when I remembered that I should talk to him. Well, started to get nervous this time. Really wanted to talk open my mouth to ask him whether got time to talk later but I hesitated when I heard Dr Adeline talked about commitment, friend, romance. I suddenly shut my mouth cause those words makes me think twice again(Actually its over millions times before this). Do I really have to tell him? I only have the heart that LIKE him but I never think of other aspects. I started to wonder am I doing right. There goes my 1st chance to talk to him. haiz.. Sorry guys.. I know.. I know.. I am a coward. Move on>>>>
Well, after everything done, all of us went back to VIP Lounge and had a meeting on the shifts for patrolling that night and here comes my 2nd chance. Him, one friend of mine and me have the same shift. My friend actually help me out and leave him and me alone to go patrolling with a warning that "If you do not tell him, I angry oo". yeah, something like that la. All the way I was really panic and do not know how to start. So I asked him if he was awake but he tell me that he is half awake. arghh.... But at last before we walk back to the fire I get to say it OUT, but not complete (I don't even say a word from what I have practiced for DAYS) . I just go straight to the point by asking him the "OFFER". Deng deng deng... the result is .. he REJECTED the offer. ouch.. that is what I heard from my heart. Luckily I have expected the worse things. Yeah.. readers, I have FAILED. Managed to hold my tears. phew.....
Didn't get a chance to tell him how long have I like him; how I come out from my past when I first saw him; how happy am I when I found out that somehow we like the same things; how much have I tried to get out my courage to tell him; how delighted when I found a good listener and the familiarity in him. Anyway, no worries la... if things can't work out, just let it be. I am not as paranoid as before anymore where I must get what I want. He is the one who makes me have the intention to find my way back into love again. Was really hope that he will like me though.
Well.. feel so tired right now so i will continue my post tomorrow can??? Chao~~~
P/S: You Really Have To Take A Rest If You Are Tired, You Must.. (Angeline's advice)
Regards,
Lost lost editor
May God Bless You Always+
Well, after everything done, all of us went back to VIP Lounge and had a meeting on the shifts for patrolling that night and here comes my 2nd chance. Him, one friend of mine and me have the same shift. My friend actually help me out and leave him and me alone to go patrolling with a warning that "If you do not tell him, I angry oo". yeah, something like that la. All the way I was really panic and do not know how to start. So I asked him if he was awake but he tell me that he is half awake. arghh.... But at last before we walk back to the fire I get to say it OUT, but not complete (I don't even say a word from what I have practiced for DAYS) . I just go straight to the point by asking him the "OFFER". Deng deng deng... the result is .. he REJECTED the offer. ouch.. that is what I heard from my heart. Luckily I have expected the worse things. Yeah.. readers, I have FAILED. Managed to hold my tears. phew.....
Didn't get a chance to tell him how long have I like him; how I come out from my past when I first saw him; how happy am I when I found out that somehow we like the same things; how much have I tried to get out my courage to tell him; how delighted when I found a good listener and the familiarity in him. Anyway, no worries la... if things can't work out, just let it be. I am not as paranoid as before anymore where I must get what I want. He is the one who makes me have the intention to find my way back into love again. Was really hope that he will like me though.
Well.. feel so tired right now so i will continue my post tomorrow can??? Chao~~~
P/S: You Really Have To Take A Rest If You Are Tired, You Must.. (Angeline's advice)
Regards,
Lost lost editor
May God Bless You Always+
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